It has been quite some time since I have been on here and maybe I’ve posted once or twice in the last 4 months it seems but I was recently released from a position at work that has created a lot more time and released a lot of stress off of my head. It was a definite challenge these last 6 – 8 months working where I was and I am glad to say that I am now finished there.
You guys ever work for someone, or someplace, that you believe God has called you to work and the entire time you just scratch your head? Yeah, it was one of these ordeals. I do a lot of “help” for small business’ and do it cheerfully until they stop paying me or yadda yadda. I know that losing impatience isn’t of the holy spirit but at times I am strongly reminded I am human and my patience fails me at times.
Anyhow, I met this point of breaking and I burst through it unhappily and disgusted. I was so eager to be on the other side of the break and I knew it was coming that I picked up a jackhammer and just started drilling. That probably isn’t a biblical thing to do but I was over it.
Over the last 2 years I have dealt with an employer whose mother was Catholic but he was atheist or just simply leaning on the I’m gonna do what I want list. It was just happen chance I fell upon this job and I like working outside so I just kept up with it. However, I have been ripped off over $2k, lied to time and time again, and flat out persecuted for my religion almost on a daily basis in which this person would laugh and scoff. But, of course they would, that is how they are. Nevertheless, I tried harder and pushed stronger. They did enjoy me as a worker, writing bids, driving company vehicles around, and getting jobs done. But every time I said something positive about the Bible I was told to shut up or positive about a church I was told to not to talk about it because religion shouldn’t be prohibited on the job. Hmm, I thought. But as time grew I noticed that just as long as people were talking extremely negative about religion it was an okay thing to do and these people were never asked to stop.
“Why am I here?” An obvious question to any believer. But trying to stay strong and lean on God and not giving into my own understanding I stayed put. I stayed put through what seemed like hell on earth in most ways. Yet, I stayed. And now, I am glad to say, I am not there anymore. A release came. I took it full force. Let me out of here! I’m just super glad to be done.
So, I have planned to write on here. Over the next 9 days I will be writing on all of the fruits of the spirits in 3 parts per 1 each day. The Lord sure does know I need to refresh on these. I feel as if at times I lost my bearings on one or two of these. Patience being one of them. I look forward to studying and teaching myself! Any help or references, scripture or sermons, would be greatly appreciated as I begin my prophetic journey through these once more.