Patience Part 2 | Fruits of the Spirit

I’ve had many shortcomings with patience. I have a pretty quick learning curve and leaving this unchecked can leave me off in a corner somewhere frustrated with others. I hourglass-1703330_640know how that sounds stupid and that is because it is. However, it leaves me with higher and unrealistic expectations for others at times. I wouldn’t say that I am bad as other CEOs like you read on Business Insider, etc. but given the chance to have a Fortune 500 company would I be? Would I have been? Always seeking excellence without excuse for failure, all that pressure upon myself, then letting it trickle down to the employees every single day while I live in a haze of dissastifaction and nothing ever good enough.. I could imagine that and it is kind of scary.

For now, I’m not a super successful CEO but that doesn’t stop my progression towards being one. However, before I get there, may I learn patience in the most extraordinary way and yet be productive. I want to take a look at King Saul because he is a popular subject in the realm of patience.

I Samuel 13:8-14

Now he waited seven days, according to the appointed time set by Samuel, but Samuel did not come to Gilgal; and the people were scattering from him. So Saul said, “Bring to me the burnt offering and the peace offerings.” And he offered the burnt offering. 10 As soon as he finished offering the burnt offering, behold, Samuel came; and Saul went out to meet him and to [e]greet him. 11 But Samuel said, “What have you done?” And Saul said, “Because I saw that the people were scattering from me, and that you did not come within the appointed days, and that the Philistines were assembling at Michmash, 12 therefore I said, ‘Now the Philistines will come down against me at Gilgal, and I have not asked the favor of the Lord.’ So I forced myself and offered the burnt offering.” 13 Samuel said to Saul, “You have acted foolishly; you have not kept the commandment of the Lord your God, which He commanded you, for now the Lord would have established your kingdom [f]over Israel forever. 14 But now your kingdom shall not endure. The Lord has sought out for Himself a man after His own heart, and the Lord has appointed him as ruler over His people, because you have not kept what the Lord commanded you.”

Imagine seven days go by and the person that had set up this appointment didn’t arrive inheadache-1910644_640 the allotted time. So us, being us, consider this extremely rude and move by ourself. Apparently, God is allowing us to read this scripture and to sit and think but for why. We were patient for seven days! What more do you want? A grace period? Interesting, isn’t it? Even when things don’t come in time we are yet to remain patient. And it isn’t a rare thing that people, things, shipments, traffic, etc. can be late or make us late. A grace period should always be in effect for our hearts. Elongate your patience is what I read here. It also makes me wonder if at times during the seven day wait if he, Saul, was waiting impatiently and decided in his heart, “if Samuel don’t arrive right away when he said he will, I’ll take matters into my own hands.” I too, have done this to myself where I lost faith in people. Perhaps, losing faith creates impatience. Even if we have no reason to have faith in someone or something does that mean we should let faith go? I fear that if we do it also lets patience go with it.

Relax, wait on God, be patient and have faith. Otherwise, fear, anger, hositility, worries of this world will creep in and consume you. So much easier said than done but the glorious feeling of relaxing is amazing.


Recently Released

It has been quite some time since I have been on here and maybe I’ve posted once or twice in the last 4 months it seems but I was recently released from a position at work that has created a lot more time and released a lot of stress off of my head. It was a definite challenge these last 6 – 8 months working where I was and I am glad to say that I am now finished there.

You guys ever work for someone, or someplace, that you believe God has called you to work and the entire time you just scratch your head? Yeah, it was one of these ordeals. I do a lot of “help” for small business’ and do it cheerfully until they stop paying me or yadda yadda. I know that losing impatience isn’t of the holy spirit but at times I am strongly reminded I am human and my patience fails me at times.

Anyhow, I met this point of breaking and I burst through it unhappily and disgusted. I was so eager to be on the other side of the break and I knew it was coming that I picked up a jackhammer and just started drilling. That probably isn’t a biblical thing to do but I was over it.

Over the last 2 years I have dealt with an employer whose mother was Catholic but he was atheist or just simply leaning on the I’m gonna do what I want list. It was just happen chance I fell upon this job and I like working outside so I just kept up with it. However, I have been ripped off over $2k, lied to time and time again, and flat out persecuted for my religion almost on a daily basis in which this person would laugh and scoff. But, of course they would, that is how they are. Nevertheless, I tried harder and pushed stronger. They did enjoy me as a worker, writing bids, driving company vehicles around, and getting jobs done. But every time I said something positive about the Bible I was told to shut up or positive about a church I was told to not to talk about it because religion shouldn’t be prohibited on the job. Hmm, I thought. But as time grew I noticed that just as long as people were talking extremely negative about religion it was an okay thing to do and these people were never asked to stop.

“Why am I here?” An obvious question to any believer. But trying to stay strong and lean on God and not giving into my own understanding I stayed put. I stayed put through what seemed like hell on earth in most ways. Yet, I stayed. And now, I am glad to say, I am not there anymore. A release came. I took it full force. Let me out of here! I’m just super glad to be done.

So, I have planned to write on here. Over the next 9 days I will be writing on all of the fruits of the spirits in 3 parts per 1 each day. The Lord sure does know I need to refresh on these. I feel as if at times I lost my bearings on one or two of these. Patience being one of them. I look forward to studying and teaching myself! Any help or references, scripture or sermons, would be greatly appreciated as I begin my prophetic journey through these once more.

Facing Knowledge

The word SAGE popped up in my face a couple of days ago but it was pointed towards Jesus. It was in a poem that Jesus was the greater than any prophet and wiser than any sage. That isn’t verbatim but I connected on the idea of living as a sage rather than living as Jesus, which is also considered a sage which simply means very wise and god-like. Why? I don’t know for certain but it seems more achievable when studying the word sage versus being a philosopher of Jesus. Instead of studying how Jesus or God acts accordingly I now have a word, a definition to go off of. My brain works very different than others presumably. Where some people would read this and say, what, why, and as very limited others would simply just nod their head and go on with the day. I never put it to the test (being a sage, that is) but it makes me think of many other things even as I type.

For instance, trying to explain to the church that tithing was part of the law and it was spoken by Jesus’ mouth himself in scripture. And yet, the church in general says, yeaaaaahhhhhhh welllllll ya knooooooooo.. as if that one thing counts towards their salvation. Which it’s truly hard to digest that this was simply the law back then and that it doesn’t apply to those who don’t live under the law yet we give because we want to see prosperity.. well that is a blasphemy in many places. Yet, it is scripture.

So what gave the sheep power over the shepherds? Yet, we see this time and time again throughout the history of the Bible. Where sheep rise above their masters, or at least try to, and end up slaughtering themselves. And it isn’t even by their masters hand on Earth but by the Master in Heaven that leads them unto the slaughter. Whether that be actual death or just being enslaved. I’m here to tell you that this is what America has been doing for a very long time. You may argue it but look at Jesus’ words to the question how many times must we forgive a brother in a day. Do we really want to exhaust our forgiveness? Pretend that hyper grace is real? Want proof that hyper grace isn’t real? Take a deep look into China. If hyper grace was real then how could we grieve the Holy Spirit? How could we break the unpardonable sin if it was real? And really it should be called hysterical grace. The church has become like the media and has enslaved themselves to hysteria for the majority. They live in a blurred vision of the actuality of Christ and what is really going on in the spiritual realm. I doubt they have any sense to it.

Many times I have faced opposition from the church from speaking the scriptures of the Bible in concordance with what they were trying to say. The church can not strew scripture and pretend they will not be found out. How dare I go after a scripture and call it God or speak it without first adamantly searching the scriptures first? I get excited at times, I really do with the Word of God. But we have to know that teachers are going to be judged harsher so many should not teach. That simply means if we aren’t going to put the time into research and study into the Word of God and make sure every end is tidy before teaching, we probably shouldn’t.

In the southern USA they still believe that as soon as Jesus died on the cross people started to go to hell who didn’t even know about HIM but that is easily squashed if we read the book of ACTS. Hint: Sermon on Mars Hill. I’ve literally been told, “I am in seminary so I.. ”    Yeah that is cool bro but you should try reading the Holy Bible. And I gave him the answer and he sat there and said, “well, I don’t know but I’ll have to study it later.” My heart breaks over this simple false teaching because it destroys the potential of the kingdom of God. And if we are curious to know what happens when people teach false teachings and the men, or the would be men of the faith hear this? It keeps them away from the church. Why would one want to partake in a fantasy of what they want the scriptures to mean? Why would I? Why would you? Why would we want to attend a church that has a set belief system that isn’t biblical but it is only the best thing in town? Yes, not to forsake our fellowship together but when does something become a cult? When idolatry kicks in? Which brings me to my next point.

I am so sick of hearing that idolatry is more than worshiping another God. I hear it is playing video games, or drinking, or eating. No, let me say that the Bible has words for drinking. It says to not become drunk so then we could say drunkard but not idolatry because it isn’t the same thing. We could say eating is gluttony but not idolatry because that is totally something else. I almost wonder if these people have been deceived in defining idolatry as all these different things to soften the meaning so when the real idolatry comes they will say, well people commit idolatry all the time so we aren’t going to do anything about this either. That is a scary state of mind for the church.

To be clear the definition of idolatry is serving other gods. And to be clear God likens adultery against our spouses to idolatry against God. That is how deeply God feels about it as if we are cheating on Him with another. That is a personal and a deep level that shouldn’t be toyed with. That is God’s emotions towards us. Let that sink in if ya haven’t yet.

So why would anyone strew the true meaning of idolatry to get their way with others? That is simply it, isn’t it? To get their way? and not God’s?

Christians Have the Freedom of Speech?!

As if Christians ever had the freedom of speech.

This comes to mind this morning out of the third chapter of James ~

8 But the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.

9 Therewith bless we God, even the Father; and therewith curse we men, which are made after the similitude of God.

10 Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not so to be.

11 Doth a fountain send forth at the same place sweet water and bitter?

12 Can the fig tree, my brethren, bear olive berries? either a vine, figs? so can no fountain both yield salt water and fresh.

13 Who is a wise man and endued with knowledge among you? let him shew out of a good conversation his works with meekness of wisdom.

14 But if ye have bitter envying and strife in your hearts, glory not, and lie not against the truth.

15 This wisdom descendeth not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilish.

16 For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work.

17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy.

18 And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.

We should never abuse our freedom of speech to tread on other people and their suffering. It seems many of us have and continue to do so. What if a prophetic move of love from the HS was here but everyone is missing it so God uses our enemies to push love on to everyone? But instead, we’re declaring freedom of speech and missing the bigger picture of what is really going on? What then? What do you say to the mercy seat? How many years must we remain vicious against loving other people and side with the world instead of God?

Rant (Christianly) XD

I wonder how many people actually study their Bible.. I mean like.. pull out original text and read it and look at the definitions of words instead of believing every English term they come across. I wonder how many people are offended in the church when you point something out. I wonder how many people turn into a Pharisee at the simple definition of a Word and say, “things are the way they are because they are.” I wonder how many people actually care or have the brain to apply to moving the church into the right direction instead of following a custom set of rules that aren’t biblical. I wonder how many people actually care about the actual Bible. I wonder, if it comes down to it, who will run and who will stand their ground when it comes to defending the Word. I wonder how many people cast out family and church members over little things instead of embracing them and practicing what the HS is teaching us to do. I wonder how many people backstab each other in the church and it is nothing more than a family gathering to them because they have done it since they were children and don’t really know the truth of it all. I wonder how many mindlessly sing old songs and say they’re worshipping and praising a God they don’t even totally know. I wonder if people are just in it for the HS high that comes with it instead of knowledge of the trinity. I wonder how many people actually truly know God. I wonder a lot of things but this I do know. I wonder about Noah, having the last righteous family on Earth, how he went about his days drinking. I wonder about Solomon feeling alone with all his wisdom turning to alcohol for three years. I wonder about the sadness of Jeremiah. Then I look at my generation and realize nothing has changed. Nothing probably ever will. They have turned God into a hype game instead of being still and being quiet. They have turned life into promises of good things instead of learning to strive and that pain teaches us. The false prophecies are arising stronger and stronger and the itching ears are more than prevalent. Yet, the righteous rise their heads unto the Heavens knowing all these things will come, and when they do their time is nigh, so a smile through all the craziness arises on their faces. The others in pain and agony do not understand, yet here we are, smiling. It is funny how in the end we are happy no matter what isn’t it? Though the days may be long we know we win at the end and at last, we’re at rest and at peace. All this struggle to break out of a cocoon. The words of Paul, “we see through a glass darkly.” Have you ever looked at a 4k tv and realized the real world looks a bit bleak compared. I bet Heaven is more amazing than a 4k tv. Just think about the resolution of Heaven. The stars, the brilliance, the Almighty himself! Just think.. and meditate upon Him and feel the breeze of the wind upon your skin. For we are going one day righteous ones, we will be there, never forget our course. Our longing and our desire are to be with Him in eternity! Simply amazing.

War Effort: Pray in Tongues for 365 days

Pray in tongues for 365/24/7. Is it possible? Why not? I’ve been told many times in the morning I was speaking in tongues in my sleep. So I want to put Paul and his words to the test. Pray without ceasing. Obviously God doesn’t like it when we pray the same thing over and over and over again because He says this is in vain.

View Matthew 6:7

So, how does one pray without ceasing then? Has to be in tongues, groanings and moanings.

Okay, well let us see it is War Effort Day 3 and I would like to keep a journal on here of where I am at with my failures and positives. The reason I started this to begin with? Well, I don’t know. It kind of came to me. You see, I have been having memory issues as of late and couldn’t figure it out so I thought that perhaps spiritually I am unaligned with taking care of my spiritual state. Too much worldly stuff. Too much worry stuff. So, I remembered praying in tongues for 2-4 weeks straight.. been awhile so I can’t remember the exact amount of days and wow was it nice to be in such communion every single day. You might think this is crazy, good, it is crazy good and fun too.

Day 1: I had to get over myself. I’ve been here before so it was easier the second time. My body literally will feel exhausted at the thought of speaking in tongues at all times. “You can’t do this. It isn’t possible.”

My response to myself is a simple one. Get over it. We’re pressing forward.

On with my day 1 I failed numerous times to keep at it without ceasing. That is fine. It is day number 1. I am aligning my body again with the spiritual aspect of speaking in tongues. It most likely won’t be perfect considering the, ya know, constant war between flesh and spirit thing. Hmm.

Day 2: I totally forgot the first half of the day that I was doing this War Effort. That is alright though. Throughout the rest of my 2nd day I began muttering here and there in tongues trying to keep at it. Head held high, not in pride but in a fashion of I’m doing this and my flesh isn’t going to stop me. I’m glad it seems strenuous because that means I’m working something out.

“What are you praying for?” Oh, I don’t know just want to be simply close to God again. A conversation awoke in me.

Later on thoughts came flooding my head then a worship song burst from my mouth. This is only day 2 and what difference.

Day 3: Well, that is today. A bit quiet today but nonetheless let us pray how we know we should and let us pray in tongues for the things we don’t know about. It occurs in my memory that Kenneth Hagin (referred to as dad Hagin by his cultish followers … jk but seriously people get hung up a little too much on people) said that praying in tongues is like recharging your spirit. He also said to one lady before, “the tongues you pray in aren’t of God’s but of something else. Here let me teach you.” I often wondered what that looked like. Thanks for that doubt implanted in my mind that my tongues serve something other than my God alone. But there it is isn’t it? My God alone. The doubt seemingly vanishes and I go on with my tongues. How enjoyable.

Now as it is day 3 already I did want to keep up daily because there are things that I missed to write about that happened on day 2 that were marvelous and away from the norm.

A thought occurs, remember where you are going, a spiritual vision someone prophesied to me once. A smile warms on my face in memory.

Life of God

What is the life of God?

Men’s (humans) light are the life of God.  ~  John 1 In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men. The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.

Why then do we treat others without love for God? Each and everyone of us are the light of God and He wishes that none should perish but why?

Why may seem like a silly question now giving the scripture in a highlighted context.

Maybe because a part of God dies with them. At such a small level of understanding as we, the human race has about all things on Earth, it shouldn’t be a bit of a surprise that we glance over scriptures like this without giving it much thought. Even that man over there that spits in my face and persecutes me for the name of Jesus was born as the light of God, the life of God, but into sin he came and was corrupted. This is why we are to love our enemies because they are still a part of God until the final day of judgement where it seems that God casts a bit of himself into the lake. What a crazy concept to wrap the head around. Perhaps, God will send some enlightenment my way.

I think when we understand where we come from spiritually and who we are as men and women that it makes it easier to pray for others. It takes a lot of understanding of God for me to coincide with Him. I may be the biggest fool but I just want to know God before I practice God. I want to understand God more and more every day and wonder why He has the patience that He does. To truly understand who we are in Him. It is a very amazing thing to know that we make up the light of God that separates the darkness from light. No wonder the light bulb was made. No wonder the eyes are the lamps of man. No wonder…

Diabolical Christianity

A couple nights ago as I lay in my bed about to go to sleep this term coined in my mind. What in the world? I didn’t have much of a clear picture of what this actually was or meant at the time. The next morning I wake up and scroll through my Facebook feed and notice that a pastor is blaming people for participating in Black Friday at 4am but not going to church or simply being late to church?

How does this make you feel?

For me, it irritated me because I was being spoken to as I am not a pastor and it was targeted to Christians and non-Christians alike. I don’t even get up at 4am for Black Friday and with the internet doing Black Friday for nearly a month this seems to be insane to say in the first place. Maybe he doesn’t have a computer.. which is totally not an excuse as he obviously at least has a smartphone to be smart on Facebook with.

Scrolling down even farther I hear a Christian news station talk about how a pastor from James River Assembly of God (which I attended when I was in my youth) had spoken about the demonic roots of Yoga. Hmm.. interesting. But he went on to say to abstain from it which caused commotion in the Bible belt of the USA and actually started to split churches.

How does this make you feel?

Now, I’m really irritated. I’m an older gent, 30, old enough to know that Christmas has demonic roots. Old enough to know that the Easter bunny is no saint. Old enough to know that Halloween has demonic roots. Old enough to know almost every single holiday we participate in has demonic roots. Old enough to know that our calendar with the days and their names signify pagan gods. Old enough to know that I don’t live in Israel.

So what now?

Because of the ignorance of another pastor, because this pastor thinks that Christians are practicing a demonic ritual and raising the spiritual forces of darkness by doing Yoga, because this pastor is lying to his sheep, because… what a mess. If Christians know how to do one thing at the supervisory level it is to make a mess that has to be cleaned up for generations after. Well prophets, have fun cleaning up this mess, I’d say people shouldn’t be so dumb and follow this pastor blindly, yet they will.

And if you really want to make this argument against me that Yoga is satanic than you better be prepared to throw every holiday in the trash can and leave the United States of America because the air you breathe is demonic.

Now, with my highly disagreement with what happened and what was said I do want to say in no way do I know the person behind the pulpit who spoke. I believe it was simply a mistake, I have to for now because this is the only negative thing I have heard. I’m not going to hate this person but I will not agree with what he is saying. Exercising the body should not be called demonic by any means regardless or not if it had roots of demonic activity. We will take the bad and turn it to good use as we have done so many times before. Relax.

Quit giving life to Satan and death to the sheep. I mean this by saying, quit saying that we can’t do things that benefit us in a healthy way and call it something else. Quit giving the power to Satan to immobilize us. It would be easy to say war is demonic and to abstain. Yet, where would that leave us as a nation?

So simply saying, diabolical Christianity is the further splitting of the church and its members. Dismembering the church for a false higher good. Telling people they’re worshiping Satan and shouldn’t when in fact they were never doing that and their hearts are with God and their spirits are intertwined with the Holy Spirit’s and they’re brother is Jesus Christ who is also their Lord and Savior.

Why Mindlessly Serve a God You Don’t Know?

I invite you today to crack open your Bible. Randomly flip it open to a place of your desiring and start in a new book you haven’t read or don’t remember much of. Take your time and read through the scriptures slowly. Remind yourself that the HS teaches you as you move along and have confidence in yourself while reading. Don’t force yourself to read too much and don’t force yourself to quit early. You will know when your spirit has had enough and you will begin to ponder on certain scriptures as you ask yourself why and start to figure out how God thinks and moves. Answers will come. Some as an epiphany and some as enlightenment. This will enlarge your day and give it purpose as you work through the tasks of the day. It is always a joy to lean into the Lord and learn Him as we move about. It is funny how we start a day with Him on our minds first and then begin to watch everything fall into place throughout the day. It really is an amazing experience.

So, you, who doesn’t know the Lord for themselves. Take a moment and relax. Release yourself unto the Word be it a scripture or two maybe a chapter or three. Whatever it is you can handle in the particular area you are in. And I genuinely would love you to enjoy your day. Today.

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